My journey through the last three years – A look behind the scenes

The last three years have been a rollercoaster ride—filled with highs, but also deep lows. Since I was diagnosed with recurrent depressive episodes and atypical anorexia, my life has changed dramatically. Sometimes I feel full of energy, ready to take on the world. But then there are days when depression hits me with full force, and my eating disorder turns every meal into an internal battle.

I'm not telling you this because I want pity—quite the opposite. I want to tell you about my struggle because it has made me the person I am today. And maybe it will also help me understand myself better.

The K-World as support on my journey

Through all these challenges, I've found something that helps me stay positive and deal with my feelings —K-World. K-Pop is more than just music to me. It's a source of energy, of positive vibes that continually motivates me to get up and keep going. When I'm in life's darkest moments, I listen to the powerful music that reminds me that I'm not alone and that there's always a chance for change. K-Pop gives me energy and confidence when I need it most.

And then there are the K-dramas. They've helped me deal with my feelings , even when it's difficult. I often find comfort in the stories, and I experience moments of self-reflection that give me the courage to understand and live my own story. Sometimes I feel as if I discover something of myself in the characters and their struggles—their doubts, their dreams, their successes and failures reflect my own. They give me the courage to keep going, even when the future seems uncertain.

Social media and my creative escape

Social media is my passion. Whether on Instagram or Twitch, I love expressing myself creatively, sharing my thoughts, and interacting with others. However, my illness often places limitations on me that I find difficult to overcome. Panic attacks, anxiety, and self-doubt are constant companions to my depression. I'm a perfectionist, full of ideas and plans – but implementing them is often more difficult than I'd like.

That's exactly why I'm starting this blog. I want to share my journey with you—the good days, the difficult moments, and everything in between. How regularly I'll be active here? I can't say. I'll write as long as my mind allows it, as long as my thoughts don't derail me.

But one thing is certain: I'm fighting. Every day, for a bit of normality, for joy in the things that fulfill me, for myself. My mindset is positive—full of encouraging sayings and affirmations. And yet, there's always a part of me that fights against it.

But I won't give up. :)

Join me on this journey and let's go through the ups and downs together – with K-pop as a source of energy and K-dramas as a source of courage!